My wife said that now that IOP has ended she is taking one PTSD class a week. I wish you peace. This is called dissociation. She read some of your other posts and she said she could see a lot of similarities between us. I need frequent reminders of this, because if I dont it feels like I will lose faith in humanity completely, and that will shatter every belief I have ever held dear. Debbie, what a brilliant letter! and "WE" your partners love you, even if today, this week, this month, this year, you hate "US"! Be somewhere. It's not your fault. You always can block or delete cookies by changing your browser settings and force blocking all cookies on this website. Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) affects roughly 2% of the general population and comprises one fifth of all psychiatric inpatient populations. I don't think it is heartless that you've chosen to put your family first and set boundaries that is healthy! I'm fortunate enough to have a man in my life who is willing to put up with my ups and downs, how mean I can be for no reason so many things. It's kind of just an awesome miracle that I've come as far as I have. Read it and notice the many lessons within: === "Hello Rick! If it was just a figure of speech, please know that you can make choices to take care of YOU and to prioritize which relationships come first in your world. Thank you very much for your perspective. You are free to opt out any time or opt in for other cookies to get a better experience. The hardest thing about tonight's episode is that I don't know how long it will take for her to recover. But I'm learning how to deal with it, thanks in part to resources such as this open letter. Now, multiply that feeling times ten and that is what a person with BPD considers intense emotion. Hay Debbie, I can relate to so much of this. Then she tells me she found an apartment and began moving every possible evidence that she ever lived here out of our home. I could never blame them for not wanting to be around me, but this all left and leaves me with absolutely no support system. Now she has totally disappeared from my life after just two years of marriage. Thanks for writing this. Please trust that, with professional help, and despite what you may have heard or come to believe, we CAN and DO get better. Whenever that happens it takes her many days to recover, during which periods she will vacillate between seeming to be okay, and seething, and saying things like "I don't trust you. , I agree with your insights and appreciate that you took the time to comment here. Sometimes the best thing to do, if you can muster up the strength in all of your frustration and hurt, is to grab us, hug us, and tell us that you love us, care, and are not leaving. When he is having his episodes he verbally attacks me. Thanks again. This is known as PTSD, and it happens to a lot of us, too.). After a few weeks there she came down with a respiratory illness and asked to come back home. Thanks for your beautiful letter it reminds me that she can't help it and we were close for 32 years so close. I am aware there is a shift in the middle of this brief description of my experience from talking to people with mental illness, toward talking to those without it. There, youll also find thoughts and questions by our community. Borderlines do not know how to cope with intimacy - it leaves them feeling engulfed. It is possible that something that you said or did triggered us. Best of luck! I dont want to live without her but it is hard to live with her if there is not some hope of improvement at her hipersensitivity, overreactions, constant blame and white and black thinking. being transgendered i was unable to get appropriate medical help because i was told my gender disphoria was "identity disturbance". BPD is also sometimes known as 'emotionally unstable personality disorder', but even that label feels somewhat prejudiced to me. Punishment and revenge are central to the manifestation of what Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is and means when it comes to relationships. Proud of you for going back to work. I have friends with mental illnesses who are therapists, and I've even had a therapist who struggled with an eating disorder. You are not the cause of our suffering. I dont know how to start this little note of mineSigh.. There are other online DBT resources starting up (I will be co-facilitating one of them!) I am scared, and I am alone. Thank you for taking the time to leave such a kind comment. You've been peeking in our windows. It appears you entered an invalid email. He wanted to change so bad I can see the frustration in his eyes each time he hurt people with his words. If you do not want that we track your visit to our site you can disable tracking in your browser here: We also use different external services like Google Webfonts, Google Maps, and external Video providers. What loved ones may not realize though . You believe you cant get close to anyone because you will love them so much, and they will inevitably hurt you in one way or another, and you will overreact and do or say something that ensures they decide they cant be around you. If you make plans, try to keep them, or offer a clear reason why you can't. Make sure you're not blowing hot and cold. For the children of a borderline, however, this is their reality. The relationship is different, the experiences are different, and the harm caused is different. My BPD finance left me VERY suddenly, moved out while I was away, blocked me from phone contact, email contact, unfriended me on FB and other social media, sucessfully compelled her family and friends to do the same and even had a lawyer friend threaten me with a restraining order for calling her from a hotel phone twice! This post is just to give you an idea of the typical suffering and thoughts those of us with BPD have. An Open Letter From Myself, With BPD, To My Loved Ones. Signs and symptoms of borderline personality disorder. This open letter does an amazing job of outlining some of the hallmark symptoms of BPD. I wish to God it would stop. It is a true fact that the Princess of Wales has reported a borderline personality disorder. Showing your love and support will make them more willing to see your point of view and help them understand your desire for healthy boundaries. , Oh Debbie, once again, you have kept it real. Life is such a struggle. over the years I couldn't figure out why I did the thjngs I did and people dealing with my behaviors would always resort to calling me crazy. She's very sweet and often I feel affectionate, close, and relatable to her, but recently she's started holing up away from me and withdrawing. I know people with BPD who were never abused or traumatized, so they can't really say BPD is actually a type of PTSD/trauma-based disorder either. The struggle of those with BPD relationally, is rooted in a proverbial no-win situation. Thank you so much. Click on the different category headings to find out more. If you refuse cookies we will remove all set cookies in our domain. I am so sorry that you are suffering as a result of your sister's behavior. That is what a fight with a loved one feels like, or how intensely they can feel love for a single person. It was a touch and go for 3 days. Punishment And Revenge. I promise you I wanted to be the man you knew, and I desperately wish we could put things back together. I have to also find a doctor. If only we all got it laid out like this. Thank you for your wonderful comment. I am praying for you, too. Should I also even bother being a counselor if I am like this? Debbie. It sounds like your Mom cares to find out what's happening for you. You have said all the things I've always wanted to say to the people who are or who have been in my life. I am so incredibly happy that you have found some hope! We can learn how to stop sabotaging our lives and circumstancesand we can learn to behave in ways that are less hurtful and frightening to you. I have a wife and a Daughter who both have BPD wanting to die and both are in Psych Wards. Thank you, and best wishes for the future. Yesterday, I had to say goodbye to a dear friend of mine, because I became emotional and said things I never should have. A certain song, sound, smell, or words can quickly fire off neurological connections that bring us back to a place where we didnt feel safe, and we might respond in the now with a similar reaction (think of military persons who fight in combat a simple backfiring of a car can send them into flashbacks. But she arrived the next day with a police office to remove, most, but not all of her remaining stuff. There are ups and downs for everyone, mentally healthy or not. Again this is NOT your fault. She has told me when she gets this sense of impending doom in the past is when she ends up in the hospital, which she has made it over a year with out being hospitalized. (BPD & The Internet), The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Wellness Planner by Amanda Smith, LMSW, Remind yourself that the persons behavior isnt your fault, Tap into your compassion for the persons suffering while understanding that their behavior is probably an intense reaction to that suffering. i haven't figured out what i think about BPD.. i've been diagnosed with it several times and as a result the system has treated me TERRIBLY. Zahra Navabi*, a 20-year-old student diagnosed with BPD around July 2020, has always struggled with her mental health, her perception of herself, and her relationship with her emotions. UPDATE: A video version of this letter, com, plete with narration and text, is now available for viewing and sharing by clicking, https://www.my-borderline-personality-disorder.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/12/healing-from-bpd-e1577900769964.jpg, An Open Letter From Those of Us With Borderline Personality Disorder. I am so sorry that you were treated badly becuase of your diagnosis. Debbie you have said what we all struggle to say. It can easily end up feeling hopeless and you feel helpless. If you are serious about hurting yourself, I need to ask you to please get medical attention right away. I would love it if you shared my letter with clients and posted it on the wall in your office. I asked myself, how can someone with four beautiful children and a stunning wife feel this way? My belief in it is fading. He will say that he knows that I love him but he isn't sure if he loves me and that he might be the one who'll give up. I want you to know that despite the poor choices, the exhaustion and what you've seen as laziness, I have loved you through it. My wife has BPD, and she sent me a link to this article so I could understand it better. All other programs and services are trademarks of their respective owners. One of the symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder is an intense fear of being abandoned, and we therefore (often unconsciously) sometimes behave in extreme, frantic ways to avoid this from happening. Remember that your words, love, and support go a long way in helping your loved one to heal, even if the results are not immediately evident. As the friend of someone with BPD, it's helpful to be as consistent as possible with what you say and do. But at least we're acknowlodging it and it's *&^$%&$& hard! I hope that everything works out in your favor. I don't know what to do anymore. I know it always comes out wrong. My mother talks to her and says she doesn't even sound like the person we used to know. this doesn't work for everyone, at all. My perception as a child was that I was, in fact, the cause of her turmoil. I'm now 54. It's hard. Ultimately, the borderline creates their biggest fear. Thank you for reading this. Reacting to someone with borderline personality disorder is a challenge. Terms. And explains how the "non-BPD" can support and understand those who are suffering from the disorder. I had my breakdown in 2003 at 39 yrs old went from happy and singing to feeling like I was being watched and crawled under my desk at workscared too death to come out and feeling like a little girl. Thank you for the hope you have given us.and putting it in terms we can understand. Common triggers include rejection or abandonment in relationships or the resurfacing of a memory of a traumatic childhood event. I made it though, and I now know that I have so much to offer to my future clients because of my own experience with mental illnesses. Dear Friends, Family Members, Lovers, Ex-lovers, Coworkers, Children, and others of those of us with Borderline Personality Disorder. In addition to learning more about BPD and how to self-care around it, be sure to do things that you enjoy and that soothe you, such as getting out for a walk, seeing a funny movie, eating a good meal, taking a warm bath whatever you like to do to care for yourself and feel comforted. I thank higher powers for not leaving life. Huge hugs! As I read it I want to share it with my husband and daughter for starters but would love to share it to my DBT therapist and group.How do you feel about that? I held on to you so tightly then, and I still do now because, to me, you are the answer, you are the only person in the world. Don't expect me to ever open up to you again." The Socialist Republic of Romania (Romanian: Republica Socialist Romnia, RSR) was a Marxist-Leninist one-party socialist state that existed officially in Romania from 1947 to 1989. They see the behavior as maladaptive, as troubled, as abnormal. Thank you for being who you are. You sound like the type of person who deserves as much love and acceptance as you give out x x x Reply freewillg Additional comment actions I am sorry I was selfish. Debbie, Hi Kat thank you so much for sharing. We're currently in the middle of another episode as I write this. I feel like he doesn't understand that it's a process it will take a long time. I am so thankful that they seem to get it. I need them to but as an outcast to society, I dont see it. I suspect that my ex-wife is BPD, but I am at a loss to deal with it because she is completely unaware. People started telling me that I was using my diagnosis as an excuse for my bad behavior. And I know it's because I still have so much to learn. Last but not least, thank you for the wonderful open letter. She called asking for me to send her some clothes and stuff so she could relocate to a homeless shelter to take IOP. This time tho I just dont know if I can walk in all the pain any longer. Just let her know I sent you, and she'll be happy to help you get started. You deserve to understand more about this condition and what we wish we could say but may not be ready. I've learned how to focus on the important things and how to handle my emotions. and I guess I thought tough love would maybe get through to her, but it's been 3 and 1/2 years since I have seen or talked to her or my grandchildren. There is a lot of misconception out there about BPD. Instead, despite how I dread to say this, I am an outlet for her fears, insecurities and blame. Thank you for sharing it and passing it along! I do love him and I am asking the Lord to help me help him. This is called splitting, and its part of the disorder. ~ Dave M. Also, during those long recovery periods, she will fixate on a distorted, misremembered and misquoted version of something I'd said during the fight, always distorted to be much harsher than what I actually said, and sometimes completely "fabricated" with no basis in anything I said. I can only hope with every breath in my body that she can be 'cured' and live a normal and happy life. This extreme, black or white thinking and experience of totally opposite desires is known as a dialectic. I suffered massive trauma throughout my life but particularly when i was 16 years old. I think these blogs are more educational than a generic medical article about BPD. These are a few of the words that have been used to describe individuals suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder. Now that I know she has BPD, it is too late for me to do anything more to help her. Explore the different options for supporting our mission. Debbie. I am a non that just recently gave up after 4 years of chaos. I couldnt talk to you then, and I cant really talk to you now. Thankyou, once again, for putting your heart and soul open for us to share.xx. I am 26 years old, I live in Wichita, KS, and I live with my father because I cannot live alone. Needless to say, if you have a loved one with BPD, life can be fraught with crises and conflict. Sometimes I feel understanding. I have ruined many relationships due to my inability to manage my symptoms. She attends a DBT Centre twice a week. Using this website means you're okay with this. If my sister would actually seek out the help she really does need, instead of expecting everyone to conform to her ideas and expectations, I would be a little more hopefully. Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I'm constantly dropping things I'm doing or putting myself in awkward situations so I can be there. It's a commitment, but I fully intend to be there for her and listen and work through it when she's ready. Maybe he'll come back to me. Distancing can also trigger all kinds of abandonment and trust issues for the "BPD" partner (as described in #4). Some individuals with BPD tend to push limits, engage in risky behaviors, or seek stimulation in ways that are unhealthy. I am having to learn what triggers, when she splits I have currently moved out of my home where she and her boyfriend live, as she had a major melt a month ago. It lays out the facts while giving room for the Non in the person with BPD's life options. I know that my new wife and family would appreciate it as well. OMG. I figured it out, but only through trial, error, therapy, a good online support group and a lot of introspection and self-care on my part. Needing Constant Reassurance or Validation "I ask for reassurance because I worry I'm miscommunicating or misinterpreting someone. "People with BPD are like people with third degree burns over 90% of their bodies. I am a male who's spent the last three and a half years dealing with a partner with BPD, do not give up, there are people who love you enough and are strong enough to deal/fight through this with you. My look on life was empty and my selfimage was terrible. Someone with BPD might feel fine one second and then really angry or upset the next. Paranoia or emotional detachment. That some people really are willing and even eager to help, and that makes me smile every damn time. We may take on the attributes of those around us, never really knowing who WE are. Privacy I am so glad that this letter can serve as a tool for sharing your journey with family and friends, and that you are able to find some help through my blog. BPD & Emotional Distress: Our choices impact our nervous systems, TIRED OF SELF-SABOTAGING?! On the other side of the coin, we may have outburst of anger that can be scary. My late father could've been suffering from BPD without knowing it till the day he died, he was a dream dad at times and abusive at times. All Rights Reserved. I truly hope you have connected with resources to support you and have had a chance to learn more about DBT! September 14, 2018, 3:53 PM. The case workers I had treated me no better. Marsha Linehan, the founder of DBT, recently disclosed that she had BPD!!! . I think that one if the distinct differences in the diagnosis is the willingness to show vulnerability. Shows that YES there is hope and not only have you found it but, you have it held tightly in your grasp!! Needless to say, it hasn't been easy for either of us. I have to agree with DBTChick. But I know this is fantasy. Debbie, Hello NB thank you so much for your kind, insightful comment. Somewhere between 1.6% and 5.9% of adults in the US have BPD, a personality disorder that's characterized by difficulty regulating emotion. SANE Helpline. Copyright 2023 NAMI. Thank you for writing this. It's all chaos. When I was scared, I ran away and hid. My heart breaks every day for them. You know what it's like, in a way that no therapist does, to live with BPD day in and day out. Thank you again. I pray every night for God to help meI would love some direction and support Thank You. I just want to add another thank you for writing this. BPD Community Victoria. Then I was abandoned againwe all know about that. But I would like to point out that I am not (neither are other people with this disorder) hopeless to date. Their moods are so intense that they interfere with everyday life. Thank you for sharing your experience, and wishing you healing and recovery in your family. Juliette Virzi. That can make you act erratically. Unfortunately, a few years later, the societal stigma against mental illness reared its ugly head. As I read your open letter, I tried to imagine my daughter saying this to me.how very helpful! This situation has been devastating because we were planning to get married and I wanted nothing more than that but her unwillingness to even realize that there could be something and act is what made me left, also because I was already showing signs of burn out such as anxiety, insomnia and depression that led me to my own therapy. So when a parent exhibits BPD symptoms, and the child becomes the target of these behaviors, it impacts who they are and who they will become. Were not saying its right. We can work through this destructive pattern and learn how to be healthier in the context of relationships. I'm always fascinated and encouraged to see persons with BPD who accept the diagnosis and are embracing treatment. Improve the Moment (and Your Life) with DBT, Interpersonal Effectiveness: DBT Skills at Work. I hope we can be friends in time and partners in raising our son. Ironically, he was a doctor, a darn good one too if I might add.Now, having three daughters, I am struggling to find a way to explain to my girls that I love them despite the way I acted, and in dillema whether it's best to live apart from them for their sake since my BPD might influence their mental growth, and miss them or stay and make matters worse. 7. i love your article and i wish that i was that far ahead; we are given just one year of dbt then we get on with it alone; there may be a graduate group but it will only be every month or two for a few hours and no therapy; my dbt ended about a month ago and far from moving on i am regressing and i feel that i have never done it at all; i would so like to be able to see things as you do but it looks very unlikely that i ever will; i would say give thanks every day for what you have been given and spare a thought and maybe a prayer for those of us who are still in the pits and stuggling; one year is just not enough to make the skills part of ones life. I asked myself these questions over and over again but there were no answers. Thanks. We may request cookies to be set on your device. I have watched you over the course of our relationship walk over many mountains. The intimacy that non-personality-disordered people enjoy is stressful . I admire all of you, everyone of you, that can speak out! This website is a collection of information that we have found helpful or of interest in the context of our own lived experiences. Another thing that you may find confusing is our apparent inability to maintain relationships. Early on in our diagnosis and before really digging in deep with DBT (Dialectical Behavior Therapy), we dont have the proper tools to tell you this or ask for your support in healthy ways. You can now share your poetry (or poetry you love) by using the hashtag #MightyPoets. If there is a problem with our website, please contact us here, 2023 Sanctuary Support Group | Designed by, Debbie Corso had BPD and has recovered. I suspect that if she were to sit across from a psychologist she would be able to fool them, but I am about to test that. I am sorry you didn't feel loved. This post is just to give you an idea of the typical suffering and thoughts those of us with BPD have. It has resulted in many failed friendships and rejections, one failed relationship, and has damaged my current one (why he has stayed, I don't really know). We were married for 12 years and the relationship was defined by me reassuring her that she was good enough, while she would constantly go through massive unpredictable mood swings. My kneejerk concern about the situation sometimes is rejection, but I try to put the feelings she is going through in perspective and just wait. I would be pleased to sent it to you. I've been doing gratefulness journals since 2000. I'm very grateful for his letter, Christine. . I want to point out that you have a lot of clarity and insight into what's been happening for you and your desired boundaries around your family. The more I read about BPD, the more I have a hunch that the girl I'm in an LDR with has been living with this or at least a similar pattern dissociation. I truly believe that I will never get better, because I am surrounded by negative people with negative feelings toward me that I then reciprocate toward them. While you can attempt to be sensitive with the things you say and do, thats not always possible, and its not always clear why something sets off a trigger. This letter really hits hard. How can I stay and support them, but protect myself as well?' My boss surely think I'm a nutcase. Just be there for her in the end when she needs you. An Open Letter From those of us with Borderline Personality Disorder: Dear Friends, Family Members, Lovers, Ex-lovers, Coworkers, Children, and others of those of us with Borderline Personality Disorder, You may be frustrated, feeling helpless, and ready to give up. This is the most dreaded Dx to come across according to my colleaguesif it was so bad, why would it be my problem? When I was told what it was, I went home and researched everything I could about it. I am a woman with BPD. i was wondering if you could answer something for me though. Yes, I know. It's not a rash or a broken bone. They tried me on several meds and hospitalized me when I started burning myself (unknown why) never did that before.but I remember being so angry and did not know why or when it would end. If you see anything like this, RUN. Erica shares her story of being diagnosed at 18 and opening up about living with BPD. But one didas did my therapist. About 1.7% of American adults have BPD in any given year, according to the National Institute of Mental Health. Copyright 2021 NAMI. I believe we could work at our enmeshment together and make this work. I am LOST! I would love if you linked to this post from your blog. My mom and dad talked about my fear of abandonment and decided not to go on long vacations together anymore, because I always become unstable when they do. I am sorry that my borderline personality disorder (BPD) got in the way of our family and us. Debbie, Hi Damask thank you so much for taking the time to write such a beautiful comment. My friend is having a sense of impending doom. I have BPD and I'm currently in grad school to get a Master's in social work. Why is BPD hard to diagnose and really not curable? Even in this letter, she puts me on a pedestal and subsequently knocks me off it. To receive a diagnosis of BPD, five of these nine symptoms need to be present (1): Feeling empty, or having low self-esteem. It can often produce stereotyping and be frightening and misleading. Currently, my BPD symptoms are worsening. A normal life can be had. You are a strong person for working so hard to heal yourself. She spent years in a mental hospital when she was younger now look at all of the people she's helped and continues to help. Personal trainer. They may do this without regard for others or possible consequences. I loved this!!! Hope you are well! I have grown up loving my mother who struggles with BPD. Our brains literally disconnect, and our thoughts go somewhere else, as our brains are trying to protect us from additional emotional trauma. Those 9 criteria and what this letter describes is sadly what i think it is like for someone to live with me. If you had told me 10 yrs ago I would be happily married and eventually become a mother I would have given you the finger and told you to shut the F up. I know that there are some less-than-helpful sites for Nons, and there are some Nons with some serious issues of their own. I now am 49 and still have anger issues with myself but no selfharming. Debbiethank you, for having the courage to write and advise about BPD, that I knew nothing of until my daughter of 27 was diagnosed 7 months ago. My girlfriend has BPD, and I've been at my wits' end, not knowing how to deal with it. . My mother has to pretty much do the same thing. I thank you for writing this. But I fear that she will never forgive me if I maintain I didn't do anything wrong. I am a Father to 4 amazing children, a full-time worker and a musician suffering with Acute Depression and Borderline Personality Disorder. That said, it makes sense that people occasionally need to set boundaries with us. Thank you for taking the time to leave this kind comment, and more importantly, for the wonderful work you are doing to help hurting people. 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